I feel Loneliness when I am Completely Alone~

But I crave loneliness all of the time. Like a Hermit I hidfe out from the outside world & now in front of a computer instead of canvas I still still find myself. Is it fear? Is it my family? Why can't I paint? Because my dad will steal it right away. I mean steal. Takes without asking & if he makes money I don't see. The biggest asshole on the entire Earth! Ruining my Career as an Artist.